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I was going to post at the one year mark, but I just... didn't. It didn't seem as big as I thought it would feel. We got a jeanie's cake, and Ashley wrote about it in the communication notebook, but still. I really just wanted to be back at Willow's again. I miss her version of feminism and anarchy.

Things that do rile up my emotions:

1) having to do a self review of my time at HPCP. I gave myself all standard, except for one outstanding. I think it's fair, but I know I have to talk about it face to face for the lunch between me and my boss. It's supposed to be a reward, sort of, but I think it's going to be terrible.

2) we have a graduation ceremony on friday, for the five year olds, and i have no idea how this is supposed to go, last june i was the newest staff so they used me as a sub in the baby room instead of letting me attend, because i had the least amount of emotional connection with those kids. ashley wanted me and cassidy to work on it together, but cassidy's done like all of it, because I don't know what needs to be done. I just want it to be over already.

3) The twins leave august second, and I really want to see what this room can be like without those two sociopaths, all the endless tantrums and scary dangerous trainwreck choices. But I also worry about what I'll do to pass the day if it's not coaxing M&N down from throwing chairs. More programming, lol?